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Did I Miss It?

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It's been a tough week. You know, one of those weeks where you know you have nothing to offer it, to solve the problems it holds, and you're extremely grateful to have Abba to listen to your prayers, hear, and respond.

As I was pressing into Abba Daddy this morning, I was reminded of one of the most beautiful relationship experiences I've ever had. It wasn't with my husband or kids; it wasn't even directly with God (though He was definitely there). It was during a moment of corporate praise and worship. I had my arms lifted high to heaven, praising God and giving Him glory.

My heart posture and the Spirit's leading was to keep my arms raised, worshipping and giving back to God all the praise, glory, honor and worship that God deserves. But my arms were simply weak and tired. My spirit was willing, but my arms--not so much. They were screaming at me in pain!

There was this moment when I knew my arms couldn't stay up another moment physically, but spiritually…

Five Reasons Why I Didn't Take My Life

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September is National Suicide Prevention Month. As the month draws to a close, it's my prayer that we not forget the people around us who are silently struggling to justify doing another hard day. May every day be a day where those who have found the strength to do another day find the courage to share their stories. Each one matters.
In the midst of a season where it felt like everything that mattered to me--dreams, identity, health--was being ripped from me, I found myself staring into a very deep chasm. Instead of hope, I felt violently overwhelmed. My pain appeared to be spilling over and affecting those I love the most.

Ending this now would save them the burden I'd become, the voice said to me.

I could do this. I could keep plodding away through the quicksand. I could keep taking the slow, hard breaths.

You could let some of the pain go if you...



No. I could not entertain those thoughts.

When God Loves Me Too Much to Let Me Get Away With Murder

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"Grace saves me from my sin; it does not remove the consequence of my actions."
Have you ever done something that you regretted before you'd even finished doing it? No? It's just me...okay!
I'm going to be very real here. I make bad decisions all the time. Well, maybe not all the time, but more often than I'd like to admit. Underneath, I'm really just a haute mess with a little coffee and a lot of Jesus in me!

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I take comfort in knowing that I'm in good company. Many of the people I admire most, the people who have encouraged and lifted me up are, in fact, also humans who make mistakes, messes, and bad decisions.

One of my favorite examples of this human condition I find myself in is David, King David.

David's story is inspiring because it wasn't an easy life. As a teenager, he is anointed and named to be the successor of the current king, Saul. But David isn't the son of Saul. But that's okay because Saul is the